I was shocked to read that the guy who writes my daily scripture notes,lost his eldest son on Thursday.He was just driving to work at the large church complex and was involved in an accident and died.

He leaves a pregnant wife and young daughter.A few years ago I would have ranted and raved at God about this, “how could He do such a thing…” But I have learnt over the years that He will not tell me the answer and I really don’t need to know. I WILL know in the future,but for now I have to trust. I haven’t come to this conclusion easily.

When my 6 year old daughter faced death through Leukaemia,I was grief stricken,I couldn’t understand why a child should suffer,I would rather have bourne it myself,I pleaded and got angry but God worked out his purpose.Many people were strengthened in their faith through praying for her,people expressed their beliefs and united across the country to help us,and praise God she recovered. My father was not in that position and I spent his last day with him.On that day he told me that he had spent his whole life worrying about what other people thought about him,and what waste of time that had been.

I left the hospital knowing he would never be in my life again,and as I have just read,grief is not a battle that you can win. You must go with the punches , you have to drown to resurface,you cannot fight it.It takes each of us different amounts of time to come to the surface again,but we do eventually,and are hopefully stronger for it.
As is often said, death is the only certainty in life.None of us will escape it. I do not have the answers to the why’s or if’s.I only know that we can survive grief and those lost become memories.

As to our own death…we can walk into heaven in a twinkling of an eye…….John3:16

For God so loved the world that he gave his only son,that whoever(put your name here) believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.

This is absolutely free of charge,just give the reins of your life to Jesus Christ,ask forgiveness and you will receive, whatever you may have done,and eternal life is yours.

And I might add,you WILL be forgiven.I heard the testimony recently of an Irish terrorist who found God. But thats another story………………………


This is a photo of the falls near the Caladh Estate in Tighnabruaich. Whenever I was feeling abit down or bored, I walked here.After rain the sound of the water is deafening and the spray fills the air.It also tastes delicious.

This always reminded me of the verse in Psalm 42, “deep calls to deep at the thunder of thy cataracts; all thy waves and billows have gone over me. “

It’s a verse I have pondered over many times,what does the Psalmist mean?

Psalm 42 and 43 are really part of the same writing.Water and God are both life giving,without them we die.
The writer is feeling miserable.How did life get like this,he ransacks the past,like looking through old letters or papers that we keep.Everything used to be better,how did things go awry?

He hears the crashing of the billows on the rocks and he feels pummeled by life,as if the water is crushing him.

By the next psalm through his tears,he realises that he has been so wrapped up in himself that he has forgotten to ask God for help.Life isn’t always going to be great but if he still hangs on to God,there is the support,things will improve and he will gain strength from the low experiences.

We need the abundant streams,the crystal clear flowing water to refresh us, and that is right here,just talk to the one who loves you so intimately and infinitely that it is beyond understanding,and He will fulfill all your needs.

Quick update

We are well into the school hols.Not as deadly as I thought,praise God that he provided the bicycles for the children that we had prayed for.this will make getting to school and town much easier,plus it has given the children something to do and with a near car free estate to ride around……brilliant!

Am looking for employment for September.Nothing available at the moment.I am wondering if I could act as a scribe or notetaker but the nearest vacancy is in Glasgow.

Scotland has had little sun this summer,we are more likely to go rusty than get a tan.

Although I am sharing a computer until I can afford a new monitor it is SO good to be back on line.