Well, I was a bit miffed when I rang the college to tell them at last I had got all the complicated things such as child care, funding etc. in place, the woman on the end of the phone said,” No you can’t start, you are two weeks too late.” Despite my protestations the phone call was terminated. A tutor duly phoned to say he was sorry, I got very cross, and complained bitterly to no avail. The door was firmly shut.
I suppose I felt let down, unwanted,and extremely worried about how I was now going to support my children. Thankfully my benefits are still temporarily in place,and I am praying that I won’t have to join the dole queue,that I can find a job before my Income support is removed.
I applied for a post in Dunblane but got the usual letter saying SO many REALLY qualified people had applied, I wasn’t in the running. Have had so many I could wallpaper the walls.
So where does God want me? Obviously here for now, maybe I am just looking too far ahead and should walk slower? But where does using my brain and planning for the future come in?
A plus just recently is that I have found a church where I feel at home, The C of S was not for me ,but this little Baptist church that is just beginning to grow is friendly and has some good bible based teaching.
So I will just keep walking for now…….